Like I'm Going to Lose You

Let me start this blog by wishing everyone a happy, healthy and prosperous new year!  Our last few weeks have been absolutely crazy with family and friends.  Non stop visits, shopping, eating and drinking.  We're winding down now, putting Christmas away and getting ready for both of us to go back to work this weekend for the first time in three weeks..

As I am storing away our holiday decorations, I'm listening to music and thinking about everything that has happened this holiday season and everything that will happen in the next few months.  There is going to be a wee bit of calm and then another wild crazy ride in April and May.  We are so blessed and we are both aware of this...  During one of our down time talks this week I told Bill that leaving us (me and the kids) can never be an option.  It can't be a threat.  That everything we face today and tomorrow and the rest of our lives will be done as a family unit.  We can both easily say we survived just fine without the other but the key word is survived...  we thrive together.  This house is better with us as a couple.

I love that when I'm working on a project and notice something not right he just makes it good right then and there if it's in his capability... for example I was putting away the mantle décor... and I noticed the trim needed to be caulked again... I turned and asked if we had caulk... and Bill grabs a bottle of it out of the garage and just started fixing it.  I was asking because I thought I'd do it... I've been doing this on my own for 8 years right?  Now I've got this unassuming partner who just jumps in and helps... Pinch me I've got to be dreaming...

Bill frequently says that he's afraid to wake up from this dream he's living... now everyone that knows me will totally guess my response to that each time he says it... I pinch him... hard.  He yelps and I tell him he's awake... and we guffaw.  We are not always going to be perfect but we will always be a great couple if we keep appreciating the other the way we have for the past 1.5 years.

I had a moment of fear last night.  Anyone that knows Bill and has spent anytime in a room with him sleeping will know he either talks in his sleep or does some kind of Mudgie jujitsu that is a risk of life, limbs and eyes to be near...  I let the dogs out last night in the wee hours (our oldest dog has a weak bladder now so if I hear her move I run outside with her so we don't wake up to Lake Hana)... after coming back in I climbed into the bed again... he'd moved smack dab into the center of the bed... was laying peacefully on his back... too peacefully... I cuddled up next to him (had to so I didn't fall off the edge) and he didn't stir.  I didn't hear him breathing... there was no mumbling... I tried to feel for a heartbeat... too many covers...  touched his face and it was warm... "god he's got to be alive if he's warm"... and then tickled the bottom of his foot with my big toe... his foot jerked and I fell asleep... He was out cold... so unMudgie like...  I notice he has more of those days when he's had longer time at home with me... It takes his thick skull a wee bit to understand he's safe at HOME... Maybe that's why he understands Hell Kitty and Lucifur so much... lol

I'm going to sing his praises now...  He made my daughter sooo happy this week.  For Christmas she wanted her room painted and we threw in a flat screen TV (thanks gramma and grandprof) and shelves along with it.  My dad and step mom bought her a new comforter... her room was the color she wanted when she was 6... bright red... now it's a soothing soft green... and fixed up for a teenager... he painted and hammered and hung everything and she has not stopped grinning every time she walks into her room...

Katie painting her room in 2008

Katie painting her room in 2015

The final product :)

 

Thank you... We love our Mudgie to the moon and back...  #family #mudgielove

"I found myself dreaming
In silver and gold
Like a scene from a movie
That every broken heart knows

We were walking on moonlight
And you pulled me close
Split second and you disappeared
And then I was all alone

I woke up in tears
With you by my side
A breath of relief
And I realized
No, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
And I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know

So I'll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I'll make the most of the minutes
And love with no regrets

Let's take our time to say what we want
Here's what we got before it's all gone
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you" - Meghan Trainor