in sickness and in health

14 years ago I had cancer. I was married, had two babies and while I went through my treatments my ex husband was not there emotionally or physically for me.  I remember specific moments during those times today and it still can bring extreme anger to me. I learned in those moments that "for worse" with him would never be good. That the support system I needed was lacking.

10 days ago I broke. I came home from a 4 day trip with a pinched nerve and muscle spams in my neck that left me breathless and crying. Bill came down and helped me. The first couple nights he woke up each night throughout the night to lift my head for me so I could turn my head. He watched me cry... he put a heating pad on me... he laid for 3 hours one night in an uncomfortable position because the only way I could sleep was leaning against him.

God said that wasn't enough for me to learn a lesson. .. so I broke further... that night, the first night, in the middle of the night a cut I had on my thumb became septic. We figured it out first thing the next morning. We went to the emergency room and spent 6 hours there. I've been on a very large regimen of pills the past 10 days. Bill has woken up faithfully every morning at 6 a_m and handed me a pill. He has come up to me at noon every afternoon with a glass of water and pills. He has come up to me at 6 p_m with a glass of water and a pill. He has ensured the alarm system was set and that I'm taking my midnight round.  He took care of my kids... got them ready every morning and let me sleep and get the rest I need to heal. He cleaned, cooked, and let me do nothing. There are so many reasons why anyone should love this man. He's got the biggest heart and soul there is. The past 10 days, he showed me that if, god forbid, for worse comes to me again that he will be there without complaining... quietly and wholeheartedly supporting me through anything I might go through. Put a price on that. You can't. I'm counting my blessings.  Thank you God for that lesson.